Tuesday morning at the local Pastors Fellowship a representative of Baptist Mid Missions played a recently completed field video from Australia to highlight the need for more foreign missionaries.
That video is important to me because I’m actually in it, and even remember driving the men from their audio and visual department around when the filming took place…however I’ve never watched it.
The video has been played in a number of Churches while presenting my ministry of course, but I have never watched that DVD on my own because of the things it reminded me of.
• It reminded me of the people in Australia who desperately needed Christ
• It reminded me of the great need for more missionaries
• It reminded me of the dear friends and co-workers in Australia
• And more than anything else it reminded me of my desire to return
These emotions have a profound effect on me since I’m in a stage of ministry that focuses on getting practical experience while waiting for my Visa process to be completed. Therefore the faces and voices in that video are powerful reminders of what I miss, but cannot do anything about right now.
Yet there must be a healthier response to these emotions than putting a DVD in one of my drawers never to see the light of day.
In recent months the Lord has been teaching me ways that having a heavy heart (sadness, sorrow, frustration) can be a blessing for my life instead of a curse.
1. A Heavy Heart keeps me close to God
2. A Heavy Heart highlights an inability to live in my own strength or wisdom
3. A Heavy Heart keeps me from losing sight of what’s important (returning to Australia)
4. A Heavy Heart leads to sharing my burden or struggles with Brothers and Sisters in Christ
5. A Heavy Heart is a constant reminder God has called me to Australia
Most of us have parts of our lives that will bring great sorrow and pain to our heart just by thinking of them. It’s tempting to hide from that, but those emotions actually come from God, and therefore are part of His plan for our lives.
Which is why I just watched the field council video from Australia
It felt like someone had taken out my heart and stomped on it but that’s okay, someday soon I will watch it in Melbourne, and thank God for His faithfulness.